Thursday, August 16, 2012
Friday, August 13, 2010
Nothingness!
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
The Wishful Yearnings
Oh! This heart and source of human yearning, I wish I could deceive you! Don’t know where I moved or aspired to move-the lane which my mind weaved as sacred, I now know nothing deceives you not even the camouflage of my so called poise and serenity. I know I m no better than your prowess of attaining me and filling me with desires. Though skeptical I still move and surrender, still ambiguous of what I said is virtue. I am blinded but is it all so normal and if it is that, then why my mind calls me deceived and despises the thing that you instilled? I am all withered and now weary of the commotions that u set inside, and how I wish to deceive you! The pain is like a dagger sowed inside me, the more I move the more I wince and so more I wish I could deceive you. You my lord just make me free of you and YOUR yearning for this mind of mine argues and says pain is how it all ends, and here you are painting the roses and glory! I wish I had beheld and posed a better deterrence but all I do is wish, wish to deceive you!
P.S don't know what exactly struck me, was it just plain flow of emotions after watching the movie 'chokher bali' or something else! hope it makes sense..:)
Saturday, January 31, 2009
MY diary of EXPERIENCE
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
country woman has matured
Finally, the day came when the marathon came to a halt, and this was the day, when everyone thought that the secret would be unveiled, people thronged at the stopping place, with kids hanging at the side waist, urchins making the usual noise and so came the time when the woman spoke, ‘well, i was on my way” , saying this she shrugged and walked again leaving a trail behind, with people still left curious and buzzing all the while and there were some who realized that they still needed some time to mature!
Saturday, January 10, 2009
How long can u see her smiling
When you see that the road that she is treading
Is a dark drooping alley
That she soon would fade and will mingle in the dust of obscurity
She soon will forget to smile
And soon she would look back
With emptiness
How long can you?
Wondered my heart and then I saw her smile again
Saw the life brimming at her lips
Her eyes bubbling out the joy
Her cheers just rejuvenating even the slightest slumber
And then I asked myself
Was I wrong in what I perceived?
‘cause life was what mattered to her
And to live in present was her forte
Tomorrow as said was an unsolved mystery
She seemed least interested in
And then I shifted and blinked
I let my lips stretch and she said
Laughing all the way round
“love you!” and so did my heart.
P.S. the picture was taken for a different purpose, for a different piece of writing but finally it scribbled this way.
a little girl whose name i forgot soon after meeting her and sharing some laughters, but her pictures reminded me of her and so strange are the ways sometimes that soon after certain things you read something that leaves you stirred, i hope you might too see something in these lines
"it's a terrible thing to know that you gon be poor all yuh life, no matter how hard you work. you does stop trying after a time. people does see you so and call you lazy. but it ain laziness. it just that you just give up. you does kind of die inside...".......lines fom the novel, 'Brown Girl, Brownstones', by Paule Marshall
i just wish the little girl never give up.:)
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
the year 2008
this was the year which i would surely say i will remember all through my life. it had made me something what i really cannot put into words right now. things were too fast and i too was going fastly. this was the year in which i dreamt a lot, a hell lot. and even saw my most revered dreams slipping away the canvas of reality. i learnt to grow and to get up again and to walk. hmm to mull more i had my first serious crush this year and for whom finally, i realised that it was nothing more than an imbecile act to get attached with, but as i said i learnt, so i love that part too of this year. i saw how much people around me cared for me and this actually made me indebted to them forever. few people whom i never expected to be there on my guard to support me during my blue . i truly want to mention them, though knowing the fact that they might not ever see their names flashing here but they truly deserve a mention(i dunno why m writing this, for there are not many to read. but all i know is that somewhere i wanna mention it), so here i go.
manish bhaiya, well he is my inspiration, my mentor and everything. he had been the one who made an incessantly crying fool quiet and filled her with hopes to walk, who beside making her walk also told her that to fumble is not the sign of a weak but of a long race runner.
ravindra bhaiya, he doesn't know it, but in just one call he made me realised that the ultimate goal of life is to be happy no matter what happens. and yeah, no matter what, i will be happy and i will always be and will try to make others also happy.
manorathan, he is my net friend, but he is more than my any real friend. he was the one to whom i knew after spilling the things out of my head i will be relieved and so was i and i think he knew when exactly, so not mentioning the exact thing.
my real brother, he is like my ultimate support. my crying shoulder, a wall to lean and to forget that there every were worries of any kind.
amrita ma'am, my school teacher who had always supported me and has showed her belief in me. a part of me will always be bowed in respect for her.
well it's just a little list that i am putting up here, but in life you meet many people, who all are a part of your influence, be it big or small, you learn from them all. and so there are also many other people whom i met in the year 2008 and learnt a lot. so let me began again, aneesha and namrata, my two friends to whom i never thought i would learn. aneesha is a girl of grit and invisible courage. she know how to take and live through the time of ignominy. she is strength in herself. on the other hand namrata is a fun filled girl who showed me the beauty and happiness in little things, and girls i so very much love you. thanks for being with me.
preeti, a small girl, aged 7 who gathers litters from the street. see her smile and talk her and you will have your day. there are so many that i wish i could empty my heart for and all i wish is that they remain happy all through their lives and achieve what they want.
this year taught me a great deal and i pray that i carry it further with me.
some tumbles, some frowns
yet you made me smile
yet you made me stand tall
under the azure and the sun
some breaks, some fouls
yet you made me score
in the goal of life
in the goal of experience
some doubts, some dark howls
yet you made me treasure the
beauty of reading a book under the grace of yellow threads
the beauty of the pearl rolling down, after toil
some laughs, some splashes
you taught me to pave when the going gets tuff
some gifts, some smiles
you taught me to instill wherever the chance laid bare
oh! dear you finally matured me
you let the woman walk out of the womb
oh! year you so steadily touched my heart
that my imbecility turned sagacious under you
i so very much loved you
oh! you the pallet of experience and joy
thank you!!