my agony(if it could deserve that word lolz)

To stand here, where I’ m standing now and to describe myself from a point where one can look at the picture frame as a viewer of the painting on the wall, might not be possible for me. For where I am now, more or else I see myself on a surfboard surfing against the waves of this living frame I am in.

From a point, where you see the perpetual flow of your dreams and then with a click, with a flip of a millisecond seeing nothing like your dreams and to see a picture entirely different, takes you time to reconcile and to be resilient. Well by all this I really did not mean to deplore the situation I am into for I said “reconcile and to be resilient.’

In fact, we start learning things. Learning from the things that, we do not bother before. We become more patient, more serious and more determined. Well, it is the glory of “jor ka jhatka, dheere se” kind of situations. Today when I walk, at least for this moment, my voice speaks to me in a more patient manner, in a more contented manner, in a happier manner and in a more determined manner to believe, to hope and to work harder once again for my dreams. Moreover, I have started observing life. The life which has surrounded me, but which I, as an arrogant, blinded and ignorant youth never witnessed before. I can see the extremely talented people being happy about their situation even though bearing the heat of financial betrayal in their hearts for their dreams. Yet the belief that they hold for their dreams, inspires me and tells me, falling is nothing but rising, obstacles are nothing but the steps to success. These are truly my inspirations for they give me strength and tell me that life is truly life only when its crude and u learn to sail through it, and it is then that I realize that there is nothing in observing something from standing outside it, just the way looking at a picture on a wall. To really feel the adventure and thrill of every stroke of the colour that is painted, you really need to plunge into it. You really need to be a colour itself on the paintbrush, you really need to feel the blow to know the actual price of the life that you dream of. and this is what my life, my little experience have taught me and I pray really hard that nothing takes away my this self realization from me. I do not want myself to lost in the glitz of fame, I want to stick myself to the land and aspire, aspire for the tomorrow brimming with the hues of my dreams.

I’ve few plans and projects right now that I am looking forward to. I aim of holding a b.tech degree and simultaneously a B.A in economics through correspondence and to write and to learn, everything and anything that I can from my little life and also to equally inspire and give people hope for their lives.